I’m honestly losing my mind. I’m sobbing in my room and I’ve been partying more and drinking a ton and making out with girls which is a problem because I’m gay and I just am surrounded by confused boys and it’s like I’m ahead of the curve and it’s painful because I’m desperately alone and angry and sad and hysterical and happy and horny and dramatic and cute all at the same time.
Tumblr friends I’m currently experiencing an emotional spike and you get to read about it :): so the guy I like recently admitted to me that he’s gay and we were supposed to hang out wednesday which got moved to Friday which is now Saturday, which I can’t do because of prom. So I’m thinking he’s just scared which is sad because I liked him for weeks and now it’s just tormenting to still not be able to be with him. I also have no idea what to do or think because I’ve never been the older guy before and I’m not sure of he wants to date me or fuck me or if he just wants to be with a guy and I happen to be the only gay guy he knows. I would love to date him but there’s no way of knowing and his texts are really vague and I’m nervous because I’ve fucked and sucked and banged and blew but I’ve never been with anyone I’ve genuinely likes and I really like this boy. Also we have the same first name which is totally adorable. Also I’m listening to Lana Del Rey which only makes me more depressed. *sigh*
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two of my favorite musicians :)
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that is nowhere near enough ketchup, Spongebob
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I miss Blythe
